sinking to the earth's core

WARNING: Parents do not read this. THIS INCLUDES YOU FREDDY. (: {i'm just joking}
Dedications to my little panda; tinaa c. and just about all of the people who get angry.

Have you ever had a time when you were just SO angry you can just blow up? or maybe you feel like you're about to grab a heavy object and just whip it to the other side of the room? Or maybe even go as far as wanting to jump off the CNTOWER? {or at least something tall}
i know i have. BUT that's normal. (: {and if you've never felt this way, something's wrong with you. seriously. go see a doctor}

many of us are furious with our parents. WHY do they have to ask such pointless questions? WHY do they have to do this to me? WHY do they have to care so much about me? {because they love you} WHY do they give me a hard time? WHY can't they mind their own business? WHY can't they leave me alone? WHY do they have to talk about me so loudly on purpose? WHY can't they say it to my face in a more calm tone? WHY can't they let me be in peace? WHY can't they see i'm busy? WHY are they in my room? WHY can't they just leave? WHY this WHY that. WHY do we complain? Our minds are all full of questions on WHY our parents have to do what they do. simple, the answer is that they love you. I often go into the "why" phrase of life with my parents. Never thought of THEIR whys for us.

WHY won't my child listen to me? WHY can't they see that i'm doing this for their own good? WHY do they have to rebel against me? WHY can't they see i care for them? WHY can't they see i do this out of love? WHY do they not understand i'm only making sure they're safe? WHY do they have to push me aside? WHY is it that my child will grow up to hate me when i've done so much for them? WHY can't they see all the work i've done or them?

of course, i'm not a parent. i wouldn't know all the whys that go on in their head. as a child, i would know our whys. sometimes we wish that our parents can disappear. then we'd be so happy. What about people without parents? how they just WISH to have parents to teach them what's wrong and what's right. We should very well appreciate all that our parents have done for us and will do for us for the rest of their lives. don't expect that parents will live forever.
two things in life that are guaranteed: taxes and death.
so folks.

have you ever told your parents you LOVE them? Ever talked to them within the past few years? Like... actually had a GOOD, heart to heart conversation? Sat down and just laughed with them? Apparently many adolescences don't. {but i do. *starts bragging * ahhaha no.. but i do talk with them}. Parents get hurt easily when you don't TALK to them. They're perhaps happiest in their heart when you do talk to them. EVEN if they don't show it, they ARE happy.
my fellow friends.
sometimes we wish to CRY so badly. Or even HARM ourselves with a simple sharp object. {let's not go into detail}. Why? So that we can get rid of all the darkness that's collecting in our hearts. Let me say; BE GONE SATAN! THE LORD IS OUR REFUGE AND STRENGTH! WITH HIM ALONE WE CAN LIVE THROUGH ALL TEMPTATIONS OF YOURS. And if we fall, there are many others to help us get up again. And most importantly: have GOD bring us back up again through the power of TRUST and FAITH in the LORD.

so let's go back to the topic about CRYING ourselves to the ends of the earth full of tears. okay im just kidding. jeez, trying to lighten up the mood here...... right, so many of us WANT to CRY {but end up with the sharp object} or actually CRY out.
People, it's okay to cry. Sure, you want to put up a mask or think you're STRONG. But i'm sorry to break it to you... you're not as strong as you think. PHYSICALLY sure, but EMOTIONALLY?... yeah... we'll have to think about that.

like i said to my friend:
it's okay to be weak sometimes. That's what God is for. When we're weak, God will be there to give us a shoulder to lean on and a hand to help us up. weSHOULD be strong, that's what we think, but there are times when being weak means God's waiting for us to run into his open arms so he may embrace us tight and tell us "it's ok my child, it's okk, you have me and i'll always be there for you." he's always behind us to make sure we don't fall to the ground. but he's also in front of us to lead us to the light; the right path of life.

listen well my friends, for God has a plan for you. THIS anger. THIS life you have... is all just the beginning. There is MORE to come and the future? MUCH scarier than what you have. NOW you can rely on friends and parents. but in the future? Who's there for you? LIVE well and learn the words of the bible, so that no matter when and where, you know that you can rely on GOD the most. Relying on GOD and HUMANS, there's a difference between those two. I shall let you discover that on your own. The difference between relying on people and GOD.
What IS the difference?
{wanna cbox your thoughts? ;)}
and yes... my parents tell me "you know how to SAY it but you don't know how to SHOW it". I should learn to do exactly what i've just said...
well, took an hour and 15 minutes writing this. TIME TO SLEEP.

obsession lost? D:

yeh, me and my obsession over dramas. ): I remember when there was a time that I liked anime wayyy more. P: But now it's all about dramas!!! *-* So anyway.

Recently i've been watching a korean drama called "goong princess hours". YAY! I'm able to watch it on youtube. YAY! Able to watch it on ipod too. YAY!
BUT NO. They HAD to take it down from youtube. ):<>__<;; UGHH. ): ALL THE ANIME ARE ECCHI AND HENTAI AND I DO NOT WANT TO WATCH THAT.

But in the meantime i shall watch something else...
delightful girl choon hyang? lovers in paris? sweet 18?
OH. There are some more i can find. many recommend autumn's concerto...
*sigh*
I'll probably be watching delightful girl choon hyang for now...
T_____T; wwwwwaaaaeeeeee?!?!?!
I WANT MY GOONG PRINCESS HOUR DRAMA!!! D;
I will get revenge!!!! ):< they wait and see.

#5. March Break in USA-final day

my conscience is telling me that this is the final entry for my trip to the US. (:
and my conscience also told me that i make a lot of typos in my posts... so please do excuse them. (:
GUESS WHAT PEOPLE?! AHHAHAHA. Geography project WAS supposed to be due tomorrow but has now been extended to be due on Thursday because the teachers are cool like that. BD
And guess what else my conscience told me? 8D THAT NEXT FRIDAY WE HAVE ANOTHER DAY OFF BECAUSE OF GOOD FRIDAY! WOOOOOO!!! *parties*
Anyway, DAY FIVE RIGHT?

Day Five {thursday, march 18, 2010} the final battle. *gasp*

Today we got up and went down to eat breakfast. I'd say the food wasn't bad for breakfast, but it's not something I'd like to eat everyday. I mistaken this omelet thing for pancake and poured syrup on it and then saw my mom's had ketchup on it instead. *looks down* but uhmmmm, it didn't taste that bad. :D I'd say it tasted pretty good! :D You people should try it. Add syrup to your scrambled eggs or something next time. Yumz.

We finished packing up after breakfast and we were on our way home!!! Woot!! NOT. We went to a plaza/shopping mall and DUDE was it ever big. Like, you can get lost in there.... okay not literally, but it would take forever if you spent your time looking through everything in each store. I bought some clothing there. (: ohh how rude of me for not introducing the store to you. XD (I'm so hilarious right?? Ahhahaha.... I bet all you people are like "..." right now) the plaza is called "Garden State Plaza" or "WESTFIELD Garden State Plaza". Get it right people. NOT "Jersey Garden". Two different places people and no, i didn't meet anyone I knew this time. It would be interesting if i did again though. XP

So after everything, we left the plaza and we're on our way home now. No jokes. (: I should be arriving at least at 12 or later. Yay. Ugh, have to start on geo project. Something I dearly dread doing.

So my rating for this vacation trip to USA? 3.5 or 4 out of5.
I thought it probably could've been better and there were quite a few times where I was REEAAALLLYYYYY annoyed but despite all that, I'd say I had fun spending some quality time with my parents. (: Alright, I should stop now. My eyesight is going to become even worse since I'm typing this on my iPod at 8:30pm when it's pitch black. (but now on the computer. ye) See y'all.
-kokoro

#4. March Break in USA

bwahahaha i should be working on geography right now. but that thing is so confusing that i'm willing to fail. OH. as you can tell. (: i changed my template again. i like it a lot this time. (: like.. SO MUCH that i keep looking at it. *looks down* ANYWAY.
Time to tell you DAY FOUR of my break.

Day Four (wednesday, march 17, 2010)
Last day here. We left New Jersey this morning to go to New York. I guess today is A LOT better than the other days by FAR. That's just my opinion though. We went to Chinatown again. I noticed my parents always have to go to Chinatown or downtown or something. Hehe. So right. Chinatown is HUGE. It totally felt like we were in Hong Kong again too. But the foods still don't match up to Toronto which was a pity. We left out car with some people. At first i kept worrying as to what might happen but im sure those people can be trusted.....

We past by the place where the world trade center use to be and took pictures while we were there. Then we hopped on board a boat to STATUE OF LIBERTY!!!!! Took pictures there and bought some souvenirs for myself. My parents bought some for themselves as well. I also got my friends some things. Although... I didn't get Techno anything because I knew he came to New York. But my parents said we were in NYC. and apparently when I read tech's blog it said he didn't go there. So I started to panic whether I should buy him something. But by then we were far from the shop already so I hoped I would be able to fine something in chinatown. ): sadly i wasn't able to and now i don't think i'll be able to get him anything. Should have gottem gim something from washington. D: Ugh, MIANHE TECHNO.

There's a lot of cute stuff here. (: buy my mom said that I can buy them in Toronto Cinatown. I guess that's true too. Right now we're going to the Empire State Building. But the GPS is acting stupid and unable to find the satellite signal. OHHHH TODAY'S ST. PATRICK'S DAY!!! I'm not wearing anything green. Oh well. My dad said i'm not Irish so "who cares". tch tch. I will be back to tell you more. (:

-kokoro

Edit: So in the end, the GPS totally led us right out of New York and back into New Jersey. My parents weren't very happy with that but what other choice did we have? we weren't going to pay $8 again to go in. So we decided to just stay in New Jersey and go to the sopping mall. But before that, we had to get a hotel room. Tonight we're staying in best western. I only know that the place is totally expensive. But my parents know I might start complaining about how bad places might be in other places. It turned out we went to supermarket to buy some food and go home to eat. There was one chicken left and it was half priced once we got there. We walked towards the chicken and asked for the price and the people were like "ohhh it's 50% off now". *sticks something on it* Luckyyy. (: Thank the Lord fro supplying us with food to eat for the night, half price too. (:
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AH MY GAWSH. my parents are tired now. ): Wonder how i'll do geography. AND IM SUPPOSED TO PRACTICE PIANO. But i feel lazy. >___<; what a horrible child i am.

#3. March Break in USA

WOOT! Changed my... persona thingy for firefox. (: Strawberries. yum. Right, im having a hard time with geography right now. D: so... anyone willing to do it for me? No? Well....

YOU SELFISH PEOPLE! NOT EVEN WILLING TO HELP A POOR GIRL OUT!!! YOU SHOULD BE ASH--- no im kidding. :P i can manage. ANYWAY, let's see what goes on Day Three of me trip.

Day Three (Tuesday, March 16, 2010)
So today we went on our way to Philadelphia. City hall was HUGE but downtown scared me a little. I don't know... There were a lot of unfortunate people, as in... homeless. But that's not so scary. The place was FILLED with people smoking though. I got worried my lungs would be contaminated with all the smoke. SECOND HANG SMOKING YOU KNOW?!?!?! D: < but thank goodness we left there and went around Philly and boy oh boy were there a lot of pretty places. I took pictures so refer to those. :D (some of you) oh right, at the end before going to New Jersey to find a place to stay over night, we went to some kind of shopping mall and somehwere deep inside there I saw ADAM SHAFEEK. :O:O:O:O (classmate).

Then we were on our way to NEW JERSEY and there was Internet connection in the inn we stayed in. (hehe... inn we stayed in... XDDD... >->;) so my dad went on the laptop to check some stuff. I went on ebuddy to see if any of my awesome friends were on. (: LACE and Akeru were on so OBVIOUSLY i had to talk to them. ;D I was happy to talk to them. Although Akeru left early so I ended up talking to LACE alone in the end. Man, I can't wait to go back to Canada.

Oh, we're going to New York tomorrow. Techno was there since Saturday to ummm... Monday or Tuesday so it would be unlikely to meet him. Then again, NY is huge so it'd be unlikely to see him anyways.

LALALALA~~~~~ so bored. D: ishalltellyouasecretnow.
Did you know, right now is already day four and not three??? :O I'm writing this the day AFTER the supposedly written date. *gasp* and i just got yelled at by my parents because they thought i was playing but im actually writing this. =_= how stupidly stupid is that? Just because I have btoh earphones in my ears (listening to music) and I'm typing. Stuuupiiddd.

Anyway, I'm gone.
-kokoro

(edit: Oh right, when we were at the shopping mall, I ran across this music t-shirt (which i simply adore) and it also came with SPEAKERS yeye!!! thing is, it was on sale too. And no it wasn't $25 or even $10. It was $6.99!!!! No tax. ;)<---now how surprised i was when i found out there were no tax. I even told my mom to give me a twenty in case it would go over ten dollars with tax included. :P Well, learned something new. Oh right, the speakers aren't horrible either so im gine with it. :D I also bought new running shoes (no tax again!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA). Yo, im not going to list everything I buy. Waste of time and it's pointless doing that so for now, ciao!)

#2. March Break in USA

SO HOW GOES MY SECOND DAY IN USA? We'll have to see what i wrote in my journal thingy then. GOING BACK... 4 days?

Day Two (Monday, March 15, 2010)
Today's day, might i say, was probably not the best. Get up in the morning and we're on our way to Washington. Wooo right? Sure, guess you could say that. We arrived at the White house not long after and once we get out of the car... it was COLD. Not to mention it was RAINING, therefore that totally killed people's mood. Well, it killed MY mood for sure. But whatever. Hmmmm. Where did we go after? Oh, after taking pictures of the White House, we walked around the places and there were uhhh these vehicles selling clothing for Washington DC so we bought some things. Three t-shirts, three zippies and two caps. I like mine. (: then we ventured to CHINATOWN. Apparently, according to what my parents know, is that Toronto has the best Chinatown with Chinese food. Something to be proud of, yes? We ate in this restaurant which apparently makes their own noodles but can i be honest here? It wasn't all that great at all. I think i've tasted better in Toronto for sure. But the place isnt' bad. What i dislike is that many places that have wi-fi requires you to pay or have some type of identification which really sucks you know.

After Chinatown, we went to visit Abraham Lincoln Memorial. At first there weren't any ways toget in so my dad decided to turn in on a right (even though it said NO TURNING RIGHT) and that scared the jeepers out of my mom and i. we kept trying to make sure that the car wasn't going to be towed away since it said that it would be. Luckily it didn't in the end. *whew*

After all that, my parents decided to go to Philadelphia to visit a bit. It took FOREVER yo and in the end we ended up stopping somewhere in Pennsylvania and decided to continue to Philly the next day along with going to New York. But on the way I watched PHANTOMOFTHEOPERA PHANTOMOFTHEOPERA wooooooooooooo!!!!!!! But the laptop batter died in the end and i didn't get to finish watching it al all. Pity ain't it? D: so on the way we kind of got lost and that's why it took forever. But guess what best part is???? :D We're staying in the same building.. (the name is the same, but obviously different building). Awesome right? There's no smell this time (good). There no MICROWAVE or FRIDGE this time though (bad). So right now we're totally eating out at a place called China House. O_o; LOL. anyway.

I miss my friends. ): I shall totally hang out with them when i get back. (: That's no doubt. XD Like Akeru said, we'll bully eddiewardo anddddd. PHAIL`D PHILTHY PHILLY DILLY PHILLIP PHILLIPY CHI BOBO THE SMILEY BLUSHY MUMBLE FACE HOBO LITTLE BOY DOT. (who TOTALLY loves Jessica Jung<--he told me to write this. =_=) 8D Don't you just love the nickname i gave LACE? I noticed my new awesome besties (aside from two other friends but they're not in my school atm) are all from the same school. D: I'm a lonely sheep that wandered into the wrong herd but somehow was able to fit in because of they're warm and loving hearts. Ahehehehehe♥ Saranghaeyo my awesome friends. (:

USA trip

Hello everyone!
After 4 days ( i think it was 4 days, don't remember) it is finally the last day of my trip. I am finally coming back tomorrow. (: SO FOR ALL OF YOU WHO WANTED ME TO STAY LONGER. Too bad. *sticks tongue out at you* As for my awesome friends... I WILL BE COMING BACK TO HAUNT YOU slash BOTHER YOU!! MUAHAHAHA. BEWARE. So mhmmm, let's see... I have no idea where i am right now. I believe i'm in New Jersey though... i'm not TOO sure. shall i tell you my trip? Although i wrote journal-like things. Should I write that? Oh... I'll write one each everyday. (: WE GO BACK 4 DAYS AND START ON DAY 1: Sunday, March 14, 2010. *improvised writing*
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#1. March Break in USA
DAY ONE
Here I am. Staying over night in Frederik. We're expected to be in Washington tomorrow since it already got so late today. The ride was freakishly long!! My stomach started to hurt a bit. Car sick I guess? We started off at around ten and got here at about six to seven. Let me tell you, I thought that this place would be nice since it looked pretty nice from the outside. But i entered the room and this SMELL came roaming out and ti almost swept my parents and i away. (no offense room). I didn't know what the smell is and surely i never will. My dad said it was something they sprayed in the room but i thought that was highly unlikely because the smell was horrendous and i'm pretty sure they wouldn't spray something that would make the customers uncomfortable.. Or maybe they did spray it and americans rather adore the smell. Who knows. I know for sure that i don't. So anyway, we're only staying here for one night. then we're off to washington tomorrow and perhaps staying in another place or something since the prices in Washington are high too.

So after out arrival, we decided to go out and eat. We went to McDonalds that was ear and duuddddeeeee there is WI-FI!! Totally awesome. (edit: BY THE WAY CANADIANS. DON'T EVER DRINK SWEET TEA. IT'S JUST TOOOO SWEET. >_< but you CAN try it if you want. I didn't like it though). Then went to Dollar General because my mom wanted to see if there was any difference in there. Things seemed pretty cheap you know. Cup noodles 2 for $1 and clothing like t-shirts and everything? Haha yeahhhhhh. Never thought I'd see something like that in there. We went to uhh, eagle something. It's a supermarket, interesting name, I know. Eagles. Hehe. So i saw some movies that were being sold at the market and immediately i thought to myself "OMG IS THERE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA?!?! IF THERE IS I AM GOING TO SCREAM!!!" so I looked around. Found narnia: prince caspian. And the BAAM. Phantom of the opera right in front of me. Okay, i didn't scream but i was in my head. Ran over to my parents going "THEY HAVE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA! THEY HAVE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!! can we get it? PLEASE?!" my dad was probably annoyed by now since i've been talking about it for a while but it WAS cheaper than best buy in Canada. It was like.... $16.99 in Canada and i thought it for $7.99. THAT'S A BIG DIFFERENCE wouldn't you agree? (: so as a happy kid, we went back and now i'm just typing to you. [i](okay people not YOU, you... journal you)[/i]
-kokoro

okay that's all people. Wow, longer than expected. SORRY IF YOU GOT BORED ALONG THE WAY! ANYWAY. Parents want to finish watching movie. TALK TO YOU LATER Y'ALL (<-- actually heard some people saying that. LOL)

daylight

So it's a Saturday. Went to dentist early in the morning. But man, i don't like the dentist i have now... i actually liked the dentist before... my second dentist. The first dentist pulled out my front top baby teeth when it wasn't even THAT loose yet. Therefore, my top teeth turned out to be overbite. {luckily i have braces}
ANYWAY, so came home and played FlyFF until the server thing got cut down so yeah, many people couldn't play.
Right now, we have guests over at our house. They stayed for dinner, and it's kind of like small group... or something, except it's not exactly small group. Played wii for a bit and then watched "Finding Nemo". I actually teared a bit at some parts. I felt tears. XDDD
RIGHT. So tomorrow, i'm on my way to washington. I'll be back on thursday. I'll see you all after then. Maybe we can plan something before march break ends.
I know i still have to start on my geography: ecozone project. =____=;; so annoying. ugh.
Anyway, love you all, i'll miss you all. (: or at least most of you. (hehe) so... for now... (: catch you all later. I'LL BE BACK TO GATHER INFORATION ON WHAT YOU DID FOR MARCH BREAK!!! (: Be prepared and write me a 5 page summary of how it's been so far. (: < nah i'm just kidding. I'll just ask you straight out. bwahahaha.

okk, really need to go. the kid that's over at my house is getting bored. i need to do some serious entertaining. OPERATION ENTERTAIN KID! :D

EDIT: Okayy, kid left. (: i think he left with a smile. good. ^^
and right, it's DAYLIGHT SAVING TIME ON... or was it OFF? I forget. Anyway, main point: move your time up one hour. :D You have one hour less to sleep. muahahahaha.

March BREAK!

Hey everyone.
Today was... oh my gosh.
After doing the geography unit test {which i totally know i failed it} and a few other classes, school was over. that is... FOR THE MARCH BREAK. i'll be going to washington. (: yep yep. {by the way, sorry Akeru! D:} after school, stayed after to practice clarinet. Then went to orthodontic and stayed there for an hour. Apparently my gum has been inflamed and they were putting new braces on and it just wouldn't stick. So yeah, an hour there, then went to eat at FMP... bought two games at Best Buy afterwards. Rabbids2 and kingdom hearts 328/2 days. They're both okayy so far. =/
==; SO THEN I CAME HOME, TRIED LOGGING IN TO MSN... and it wouldn't work. Error 80048831. I think something's wrong with my id account. i tried to reset the password a gazillion times, but it just wouldn't work. D: Would that mean i have to make a new email and like... try and add everyone?! But i don't remember who i had and who i didn't.... GAHHHH.

edit: msn works now. (: hehe♥

happiness

YES.
so ... TWO DAYS ago.... {monday} i was flyffing with a friend. (: The other one was off... it was late i believe so she wasn't on. So anyway, there's this event happening... "Chance Box Drop" thingy. The rarest thing you can get is ELEGANT BLACK WINGS. So i probably got like... 10 chance boxes..... most of them were "flasks"... i got cupid wings... and then... BOOM. ELEGANT BLACK WINGS. I WAS SO HAPPY. the friend i was with got his a long time ago. the first box he opened actually. ==; *sweatdrop*
anyway, the happiness doesn't end here.
YESTERDAY {tuesday}, i got my mark back for my geo powerpoint. (: I DIDN'T FAIL! YES. I actually did A LOT better than i thought. HALLELUJAH PRAISE THE LORD ALMIGHTY! No? ;) Thank you for praying for me too accountability partner. (: Oh.. i should give you the link for my blog too... anywho... i was soooo happy, i went to math happy. got my average for that. I went up by 7%. ^^ YAYAYAY. YESSSSSS. Man... must be my lucky day, but i have to hand it to you God. (: You sure do surprise me in many ways. OH. RIGHT.
I was SO scared about my geo... i thought i was going to fail or get 0 because of "plagurism" but sunday night i had a dream that i got 81% on it. I actually got a bonus from God too. :P That's why I have to thank him. ^^ Thank you GOD.
SO YEAH.
Self-defense class.
instructor's really funny. but today... sorry. *crosses that out* YESTERDAY, the warm up was a killer. D: Apparently today's is even worse.... and tomorrow's the EVEN worse... and friday... instructor: "let's just say you're very lucky to have march break after".
WE.
ARE.
SO.
DEAD.
BY.
FRIDAY.
Period. end of discussion.

Love you all!
kisskissmuah

MARCH BREAK!!! ... is almost here.

Hey everyoneee!! :D:D:D
everyone: hi kokorooooo!
ureshii. ^^
Anyway, so "yesterday" was our breakfast honour roll ceremony thing and OMGSH!!!! D: < ALL I DID WAS SIT THERE WATCHING PEOPLE WITH HIGHER SCORES GO UP AND DOWN THE STAGE. I WANTED TO PRACTICE FOR MY GYM SKILL TEST!!! UGHHHHH. I don't even know what skill i want her to mark me on. OMGSH you know what? FORGET GYM. I've never been good at it anyways. HMPH.
also for GEOGRAPHY. OH MY GOSH. My teacher gave us the work on WEDNESDAY and expects us to finish on THURSDAY. Sad thing is i had band so i came home around 5... i was doing math until 6... and then ate dinner and stuff until 8... so i actually started working at EIGHT O CLOCK. AND MY OH MY. LOOK. THE OTHER CLASSES GETS TO HAND IT IN ON FRIDAY. I SEEEEE. D: < Haha but... Akeru and i are feeling the same thing in geography class. :P Uhh... techono journee in another class. anywho, when akeru and i are in geo class, we have friends. (: *good thing* unfortunately though... it seems as though our "friends" aren't willingly enough wanting to partner with us in projects and things. -sigh- it's kind of hard to work like that. I mean, i know i have friends, but they're most likely going to pair up with their OTHER friend... right Akeru??? ): *bad thing*

anywayyy, imma go go go go go now. I have gym skill test, music playing test and math unit test tomorrow. >_< WISH. ME. LUCK or i may die. (: although you're all sleeping so who cares?