-Ouuu, i think I'm posting wayyyy too much. Haha. But you know what?
WHO CARES? Deal with it. Especially you STALKER-SAN if you're still reading. LOL.
-Anyways, so okay. I had BAND today after school until 4:20pm. I had to stay back a bit and copy something down because I missed it. I was expecting my friend to be waiting for me because I was going somewhere with them after band. But you know what? They totally DITCHED me. I couldn't find them at all; that sturred my anger emotion up. I had to walk home because I didn't know where they went; so I couldn't go with them to the place. I'm 100% sure that they weren't still at school because I checked all possible areas as to where they might be, and result? Nada. So... that's the life of me; constantly getting DITCHED by my so called "FRIENDS". Reminds me of the time back in grade 7 when i was ditched my by 'groupie'. But ye know what? That's the past. I'll gladly let that go... in pain.
-So my dad went to this... FGBMCI... Full Gospel Business Men Christian International or whatever. The name's sooo long I can't remember it. But I'm 110% sure that I got the FGBM and the I part right. I don't know what comes between the M and I. Whatever. So I'm left with my mom; yipee, get to spend a day with her. I let all my feelings out that I've been holding in. Ones that are unable to reach my friends because I no longer feel safe with telling my feelings out to friends. Believe me; there are many secrets I've kept from them. Ahha, i remember when people used to tell me their secrets, and now.. hardly a thing. I don't exactly feel like explaining my situation that I've explained to my mother here... for the reason that I've said not long ago.. if you people even remember.
-My day was pretty much... okay... like everyday. A world of confusion, desperation, and lost. Confusion for what to do, where to go, who to hang around with. Desperation in having a good friend like I've had when I was much younger. Where has the good days gone? Is it just me; or is my life getting lonlier as each day passes by? Lost... a lost soul... a lost lamb... wandering carelessly around; oblivious to the outside world. What was to happen if a wolf came along? I wonder about that point. Life's a toughie, that's for sure. Not only me, but for everyone. We're humans, we're not perfect. God didn't create us to be perfect. There's flaw in everything on Earth; let me tell you that. Even the most prettiest person, the most perfect person in your eyes; are full of flaws.
BUT THAT'S LIFE.
-Ugh, I don't want to study for my lab quest that was POSTPONED TO TOMORROW. So stupid. By the way, this is an edit... it's now 12:53am. Only this hyphen note part. The next part's not. So anyways, stupid quiz, we don't even know what it's on! I didn't even study. BLEH. Whatever, ohhh, my Reading Response journal's 87%, my unit test for French is 89%. My FRIEND GOT 99% . AHEM. ==; Smart butt. Haha, no, I'm joking. Not going to bother studying for the quest though. Ugh. AND MY FRIEND HAS BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION.. That tomorrow and Friday, for Family studies, which is second period, we're watching a movie. woohoooo! And than Monday and Tuesday next week for English, which is last period, we're watching a different movie. Haha. sad thing.. i think we need to write a stupid report or whatever for it. Ugh. <3>
-Ugh, slept at 2 last night. Ah-hahahahaha. I'm gone for now.
Writer out.
well, I guess, I can't really relate to you jacqueline, but I do remember the grade 7 things and everything that happened. It was a total rollarcoaster, definately. But don't alway be a pessimist <-- i dont think i spelled that right but whatever =] You still have me. I will always be there to listen and help ( even though i might not be able to change anything) becuase that's what we're taught to do. I think the ting that really brought us close and tight ( and snuggly XD ) is the fact that we both KNOW that these things need prayer and we have to depend on God. Our faith made us tighter friends, becuase i know that you'll be there for me when i fall just like how i'll be there for you. ( aww that was cheesy. but it's TRUE )
ReplyDeleteJacqueline, as well, i really think you should take into consideration the fact of going to fellowship. Honestly, there's just so many things going on to our dear brothers and sisters, and we don't expect it to happen to them. But it does and I guess, we're really grateful to learn from one another. It's relaxing, and once you step outside your comfort zone, it's AMAZING how much you can gain from others, and from yourself.
so, i'll be praying for you ( def. ) and I hope you come to fellowship this week. This week is called release ( it think ) . sorry for the long comment. LOVE YOU !~ AISHITERU <3