Hate It.

Sometimes... i really do hate life.
There are things I wish I haven't done.
And things I wish I don't do.
And just things in general.
I hate how I learned to play the piano. Even after quitting, my dad still forces me to practice so that the money they put into my piano lessons haven't gone to waste. I hate how I accepted to try and play as an accompanist for my dad's friend for 24hour worship. Because I accepted to try, my dad is always on my tail, asking me to practice those songs each day, asking whether i know how to play them and telling me how i'm not playing fast enough for the songs and how i need to practice them more and how i need to learn the chords and everything. I hate how because I don't practice piano, my parents think I actually don't like music and said they were going to tell my music teacher at school that i don't practice piano. Seriously, piano is not the only instrument that has to do with music. Get it screwed it your head properly.
I hate how even though I've followed my parents around this winter holiday, they're still complaining that I'm always on the computer and how I took their laptop because my computer got messed up.
I hate how my dad tells me I'm the same as "him". I can honestly tell you, just because I'm a BIT like my him, doesn't mean i AM him. Okay? I wash the dishes when you tell me to, I don't argue with you while calling you insulting things, I vacuum the carpet when i'm told, sweep the floor, I even shovel the snow and clean the bathroom (before he took over it) when you tell me to. My life isn't always spent in front of the screen of my computer like him okay? I actually do those. He doesn't. I don't even understand why he gets allowances and i don't. He doesn't do anything at all yet he gets $50 a month? Tch.
I hate being compared to friends or people in general. The End. Oh sure, go compare me with someone else. Oh sure, yell at me when I compare myself with someone else because they're not your "child".
Hate it. Yeah sure, hate's a strong word. Haven't used that word in a while. But you know what... life's messed up enough to use it right now.
Hate how i feel like i don't belong here or anywhere. The love? it comes.. and goes. This lonely world... can't trust anyone.
Hate it... just let me hate it for now... just for now...
i'll go back to how i am later... loving everything again.
but just for now... let me drown... in my misery.

Retreat Day One

retreat day one
how is it?
i guess you could say that it's not bad.
Right now, instead of sleeping, the youths are playing cards downstairs. XD
Wonder how long they plan to stay up until
Thank God for wifi.XD
tomorrow the whole day.
hope it's okay and not bad.
why do i bother typing this?
just a reason to go on internet?
pretty sure that's why.
LOL
im out

Jacamom wishes you all a merry Christmas {On Christmas Day...}

Hap... *crosses that out*
i meant MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Today is the 25th of DECEMBERRR and YES.
it means it's CHRISTMAS!!! woooooo~~~~
So, when do you guys open your presents anyway? .___.
apparently you're supposed to open them on boxing day... but i always thought you were supposed to open them on Christmas Day... D8
OH WELL. It's the same either way. The only difference is that you can open the presents a day earlier. XD.. i think some people open them on Christmas Eve. o.o"
anyway.
SO.
Merry Christmas SON,
Merry Christmas DAUGHTER.
Merry Christmas, GRAND DAUGHTER,
Merry Christmas.... ex... son/daughter??
Merry Christmas... extra people who still need to be given a part in the family (:
and most of all!!
Where's my present from you guys? = = no im kidding. XD
you guys being my friends are enough for me. (:
SO ANYWAY.
oh by the way son, yes i know what "add oil" is. XD i'm old, but not that old. I still know what you youngsters say with your slang and stuff. (:
Anyway. Melly Krissy-masu!
I hope you all spend it nicely with your family.. or friends... or your... family of friends.. if you get me... friends that are your family.. you get get me? yeah, i thought so. :)
okkayyy, bye. XD

Stupid Computer. Rant.

So my computer died on me. Okay no, I don't mean that it literally died, like. BOOM! power's gone. video card got burned. I meant my internet died on me. Not the connections. NO. = = I said NOT the connections. I meant the whole entire internet.... am i joking? what does it look like to you? no. Anyway, so my internet suddenly disappeared on me, I'm pretty sure internet doesn't just KAPOOF on you. Right? So it must have something to do with my computer. I'm 99.99% sure. What about the 0.01%? Not sure.

so NOW. I have to use my mom's laptop. Which isn't a good thing because my parents use my mom's laptop too. pooie. Might have to reboot computer. :r *sigh* again.

And have i ever mentioned how much "those two" get on my nerve? Well, they didn't really do anything to me, but I'm still a part of it. They're annoying. The end. No questions asked. Actually, they're not just "annoying", they're like... I don't even know how to describe it, but I just want to slap them sometimes. You know? Slap them twice across the face. I'd scream at them... I really would. But no, that wouldn't be nice. BUT I HAVE THE RIGHT TO. Well no, not really. All I can really say is they're kind of disrespectful. = = " They bring the word "disrespect" to a whole new level! no I'm joking... or maybe i'm not. I'm not too sure if I'm joking or not. All I know is that they're loud and rude. = = They think they can do anything they want? HA. I pity them then. Actually no, i don't even want to pity them. i want nothing to do with them. I say this, but sometimes they're not that bad. Really. it's just those times when they're really loud and the whole darn neighbourhood can hear them. <--example of exaggeration.
What to do, what to do. I'm not the only one who's fed up with them. FAKE MAN. FAKE. THEY'RE FAKE. okay no that's too harsh.

*sigh* eotteoke...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONEW!!~

Haven't posted something in a long time. ahh well.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONEW! SHINee's Leader. (:
Thanks for taking care of your dongsaengs! =D
You're a good hyung. (: continue being a good hyung to them!
kekeke.
And of course,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MINHO~
Flaming Charisma. (:
Saranghaeyo! SHINee!