To my future GRANDCHILD(ren)

Don't hate, but love yourself for who you are born as. There is no other you; even if you have a twin, they are still not you. They are them. Everyone's purpose on Earth is different and if you come to wonder why, you will know in time. It may take years but I promise you, you'll see your reason for being soon enough.
Know that most; if not everyone, will go through what you go through, throwing hateful words are yourself. I know I, myself, have gone through that phase and wish not to go back to a scary world full of hate and fear. So child, please learn to love yourself and don't be afraid to share your thoughts with others. Bottling it up will do no good. I can ensure you that bottling everything up will make matters worst. Far worst than telling others.
Grade eight was the time where I was most bottled up with my feelings. I felt so alone that I gradually kept everything to myself, which I still do because I have not learned to open up yet. There were so many times when I kept telling myself that I hate myself and wished I was never born. I remember telling others they wouldve been happier if I weren't here, and that there'd be no difference in their life as I am only one out of a hundred people they know. I used to think the whole world hates me and that I'd be alone forever. I didn't need friends or family. I can manage on my own. I cried one too many times. I felt tired inside. Inside here. -points to heart-
While you're trying to tell others, others are trying to get you to tell them. It all takes time. But child. Know that you won't regret it. It's hard to love ourselves and it take plenty of time to get to know who you are and what you are. Where youre headed in life and who will be with you. So learn to grow strong. At this age, I still must learn too. But I have God with me, and I know he will help. I hope that you will learn to depend on him too when you run into troubles. Even if you decide to go against the religion of your parents or grandparents (me). I encourage you to try it.
With all my love, and I say this because I do love you (even if you may be in the future),
Granny.